I’m so happy I am able to finally share this happy announcement with everyone. This was by far the biggest and hardest surprise I had to keep secret. We are still getting over the shock of it all. It’s really a life changing experience hard to describe in words until you go through it yourself. I have close friends that have had children and I could never relate since I had no way of comparing what they were feeling until now. I never really knew if I was a “baby” person. Sure, I knew I wanted to have children some day, but it was never something that I focused too much attention on. I was never really around small children or babies, so it intimated me. I always felt insecure holding someone’s newborn and never knew how to “play” with toddlers. Everyone tells me it’s different when it’s your child, I sure hope so.
The Day Our Lives Changed: April 2nd
Disclaimer: Don’t read any further if you’re not interested in the inner workings of the female anatomy. 😉
I will never forget April 2nd, that’s the day I found out I was pregnant. Both Daniel and I had been traveling frequently for work and were hardly home at the same time let alone the same country in order to do the deed. Thinking back of when this could have happened, it was only one possible occasion. I have an irregular cycle so some months I have my period and other months I skip it entirely. I thought this was another skipped month so I didn’t think too much about it. I don’t know what possessed me to take the test, but I thought, “what the hell” and took one anyways. I didn’t think much of it. I remember not even looking at the results right away and just left it on the sink while I washed my face and brushed my teeth.
I was on my way out of the bathroom when I glanced over at the test, “GRAVID 2-3”, it read. It was a Swedish tester and the previous tests had said INTE GRAVID, so my heart began to race. I stared at it for several minutes not knowing what I was thinking and not sure if I was breathing. In the room Daniel as fast asleep and all I wanted to do was jump on him to share this amazing news. All of a sudden in that moment when I found out that I was carrying a little piece of Daniel and myself, I knew I had always wanted it. Deep down somewhere, I wanted to become a mother.
I walked out of our bathroom with the stick and placed it on the nightstand by Daniel. Then like a major creeper I just hovered over Daniel smiling as I watched him sleep. He could sense I was there, probably because I was breathing so hard from the excitement. He looked up and rolled over making room for me to join him in bed for our morning cuddles. I jumped in and gestured over to his nightstand. He rubbed his sleep filled eyes and looked up at me with wonder. I can’t remember the exact words, but he said something to the effect of, “What?! Are we pregnant?” Before jumping out of bed and grabbing me close. We sat in bed staring at the stick that confirmed that another life was about to join our happy home. We were in total blissful shock. We just couldn’t believe it and we felt so lucky.